When I woke this morning and saw the chilly temperature. My mind had a brief thought that reminded me of grief. I’ve been waiting for months and months for warm days and balmy breezes. Every day there is anticipation that maybe today is the day that it’s a shorts and a t-shirt kind of a day. My body craves the warmth of the sunshine so bad. It’s been month after month of cold, putting on the layers to stay warm weather. I had an impatient feeling of, will it ever get warm again. I can’t take this anymore.
This was when it reminded me of grief.
I remember waking every morning and hoping and praying maybe today is the day it won’t hurt so much. That somehow my pain would be a little less, or it wouldn’t be the very first thing that pops into my mind. I wanted something different than what it was.
Fighting against what is, is futile.
Wishing and hoping the weather changes or wanting grief to speed up or go away is the same thing. It’s going to run its course. What we can do in these times is look for what is good. For what feels better.
I look at the trees. I see them turning green, their little leaves unfurling. I see the pops of color shooting up from the ground. I hear the birds. I know warm weather is coming, and just for the moment, this soothes my soul.
Grief is similar. After some time, the memories and photos of your loved one will bring you peace. You’ll remember the moment the picture was taken, and that will comfort you. You will make new meaning in your life, and that will soothe you. You will get stronger to hold your immense grief. This season will soften over time.
Grief has its seasons, and like the weather, it can change on a dime.
We don’t have to love what is, somedays we can stay buried under the covers because that’s what feels best. Other days we can hold onto that better days are coming and seeing what is good, helps immensely. This is where our power is … accepting what is and knowing we have a choice of how we want to soothe our soul, just for today.
With Much Love,